my life sucks harder than you could imagine.

i ate bubble bath last night.

little

im just a little bit scared right now
scared of my emotions
scared of whats going on
scared to show my ture feelings

because i know everyone thinks im laughing when i call him a douche, like im joking
most of the time i am
but alot of the time im not
and im dying inside because i dont know why im staying with him
because hes hurtful
and hes bringing me down
and i dont know why im fighting so hard to keep us going
when he couldnt care less

so really,
thats why im not writing so much


coz im just a little bit scared
of whats going to happen...

to us.

im sorry im not writing much since the holidays, im going through a bit of a bottle-it-all-up-i-dont-want-to-talk-about-my-fucker-of-a-life period.

your still beautiful when you cry

i spoke to cam tonight and told him pretty much everything about how im feeling with lachlan. but there is still more i want to tell him about it.

my mums being retarded. like seriously, fuck off. happy and OTT loving one minute, holy hell i want to kill you the next. make your mind up. i dont care either way.

http://daniel.fliggo.com/video/6YBbsBAY

and he doesnt even know

that everything isnt okay

fuck my life.

seriously.

tonight was terrible.

im really questioning things.

like lachlan.

is it even worth it?

i cant promise to solve all your problems
but i can promise you wont have to face them alone

i kinda want to post something

but i kind of dont.