little

im just a little bit scared right now
scared of my emotions
scared of whats going on
scared to show my ture feelings

because i know everyone thinks im laughing when i call him a douche, like im joking
most of the time i am
but alot of the time im not
and im dying inside because i dont know why im staying with him
because hes hurtful
and hes bringing me down
and i dont know why im fighting so hard to keep us going
when he couldnt care less

so really,
thats why im not writing so much


coz im just a little bit scared
of whats going to happen...

to us.