it was just one small necklace made of silver. not worth a lot in the scheme of things, but by god it did.

there are reasons for everything
and im kind of sick of certain people asking me why i do things
especially when i have already expressed my anger or sadness to them
and then they ASK a few days later... but why did you leave it behind?

DID YOU NOT LISTEN?

there was a reason i texted it to you even when you were not even 10m away.
because im an arse alright?
but didnt you know?

the reason i left it behind was because it gives me hell to wear it.

it is SO beautiful.
i love it.
i love it so much.

the way the corners are perfect.
the way it glistens in the sun.
it is so SHINY.
the perfect length.
the chain is 45 cm.
perfect.

but that day.
a day supposed to be the best of the year.
i need to get a new one now.
or just blank you out completely.
because you will never support my decision.
even if i did get a new one.

i would have LOVED to bring it to Italy.
i would have LOVED,
LOVED
to bring it into St Peters Basilica
more than anything

Just to show the world im serious.
but i went in there, without it, feeling bare necked even though i was not
and feeling a bit empty

empty. how familiar.



ill stop rambling now. sorry.