me

i feel so alone

i dont even know how

i just am

like nobody understands..

ever.

nobody actually knows what happened monday..yet.

nobody actually knows what is happening right now.. yet.

and i wanna tell you

i do

i just dont know how

i just feel like i shouldnt

like i dont wanna dump

but i feel so alone

lonely

and like there is no one

and im sick of it

i am sick of the smile

so i am swearing an oath to myself to not smile at all tomorrow unless i am actually happy.

lets see how that goes.

everyonell think im weird

oh well

suck it cold hearted bitches

im being me now, for one day

just for one fucking day

give me that much.

then ill be back to what you want me to be.